Upset....Highly Upset....really upset.. I haven't updated in sooooo long and now I feel extremely lost and confused.. and I feel very frustrated that I haven't had the time to even write down my thoughts....isn't it sad how I cant even write down my thoughts? But I'm hopefully back in business.. but then again things would be easier if my laptop was working! Stupid thing is still getting fixed "/ I miss it though... I remember those Sundays where I would lay on my bed and just type =] good times I need that part of my life back.. I felt like I let emotions out that way.. but anyways my life is still stressing me out....but getting a little better as time goes by or maybe I'm just learning how to deal with my situation....I just can't make it the center of my life anymore..well this is all I can say for now...[BTW I was writing this while I was on my bus ride back home from visiting my grandmother who turned 74 June 2Nd woo :] and she's not ashamed to say it she still has moves lmaOo ] Ugh! now I have a stomach ache so until next time adios :] BTW bloggers should start updating like before it feels great :]

random posting

Immmm BACK =] [dun dun dunnnnnnnnnnn]

Well I haven't updated in years..Ugh no time and stupid laptop of mine..supposedly got fixed..worked for the first day I got it back and after that it hasnt even turned on.. O_O so unfair..
So what to update you on..ummm Okay so yeah I made a new friend a while back [in Rhode Island thanks to my other half] :] woo! well I dont know where she has been hiding him but he's finally out and good because he's like awesome! :] I find him interesting & HOT, smart & HOT, funny & did I mention HOTTTT lmaOO...well yeah I've been getting to know him... pretty cool :]
Sooo enough about him before you want a piece of him lol.
Lately I've been STRESSED out school work has taken over my schedule..sheesh my english teacher is drowning me with essays just for I can be prepared for "regents" sheesh he's an awesome teacher..I guess he even doubts his skills in teaching..or maybe he thinks a break will make us lose concentration. A little break... sounds nice.. a spa ...a massage :] for a week..come on someone surprise me! =]
Umm...that's all for now...[Oh one more thing I need to start working out..but dont we ALL say that] lmaO..I want to sing and bug out..O_O darn.. I need excitement!! well time for me to go! buh bye =D

My hot hot weekend

LoL okay so things have been going pretty good lately....Im happy no arguments with mom...more freedom lately and just plain fun..:] Friday I chilled with the besties & stuffed our faces like always lol..Then went to a softball game that got cancelled but the day was still good :] saw and old bestie of mine and catched up on ALOT good times..Umm saturday was awesome lmaO..chilled with the besties for awhile and then bugged out with my cousin [my TSM] and her twin [My soulmate] can I ask for anything else? ..Well I can..but things cant always be PERFECT.. good enough for me I guess...for now just hope things dont start going down the drain..

heres a preview of my sunday morning

just why?

Why can't mothers ever understand?

Every Single Freaking Day!
My mother always manages to ruin my day with her thoughtless words and unecessary comments. It just seems she's always out to hurt me and I don't understand why. Why me? Out of all her kids she chooses to torture me and says stupidity. I hate that so much about her. How could she hurt me and not notice what's wrong?.. How can she trash talk me and then ask why the face? She seriously doesn't know me at all and I don't think she ever would. Its just not fair. And im getting sick and tired of it. I need to leave or just learn how to put up with it and I don't think I can put up with it any longer its too horrible. Its like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I can't take this nightmare any longer I need a dream. A dream that will save me from the "monster" the beast.. Whatever you want to call it. I just need some help. Something to help me leave or handle her...because I just can't anymore.

NO name

What's up?

Ugh! Im starting to think what is the freaking point of life you work your ASS off yes I said ass for what? Like you really work hard trying to "succeed" ..but you go through struggles,problems,a lot of tears, lose people you love..end friendships...relationships..like seriously why would I want to stay living for stupid stuff like that? Minus well take me now and end my misery before it gets worse...

Okay so before, my mom and I didn't see eye to eye..she was becoming too over protective and mean towards me but I thought that all changed when she started letting me out more often I felt a big relief thinking finally freedom and I belived we were finally "understanding eachother" but noo that all changed back to stupid level 1 even worse then before she's complaining more..not letting me go ANYWHERE because I should "dedicate" my vacation in helping her out like seriously are you crazy?! I help her when I have school and now during vacation its insane im becoming more stressed, and very misunderstood and I can't stand it. I cry at the thought that I would never get out of this horrible misery of feeling alone. Left out no one seeing behind this "fake" smile Im tired of everything everyone and life..like I said before why can't they just end my misery now? "/

Mood: Feeling Stressed Out
Thoughts: I want to just disappear or just be left alone for a long time I need time to myself and for myself Im tired of helping everyone..I want to live for me and not for anyone else..Im tired of this shitty life -__-

Anythoughts about what I said just either tell me or just keep it to yourself..enough blogging for now BYE

=] posting up!

Howdy partners/bloggers
Lmaoo im hoping I don't run out of random hellos for my post :)

Well I felt like just talking about my obsession with music and singing...They play the biggest role in my life..I love both things so much..music because the songs are always there to keep me happy, entertained, and just plain AWESOME! I love to sing eventhough I don't think I can sing good but just singing makes me feel great. Lyrics are beautiful and nothing beats the beauty of rhythm =]. Music is my life :) probably you've heard that a bunch of times but I seriously can't see my life happy without it..its like music is a part of me..=]

Well moving on from my obsession let me talk about ......hmmmm....

How gullible some girls can be..

Okay girls I know guys might think were easy to get but don't make yourself too available I hate that so much about certain girls because then all guys start to believe were all like that..and I know I am definetely not like that..I hate how girls can just believe everything a guy says to them..like your the only one for me [after you've been talking to him for a week] if he's telling you this now imagine what he says to those who he has been talking to for a month..or what about those guys who you've known for a long time but years pass and they just want to randomly hit you up and say how much they "love or like you" are you serious? Like dude where have you been?...sorry but that just pisses me off when girls make themselves too much of a target..take it easy and play it smart... =] please and thankyou chicks.. =D

Like my bestie chinese ninja says people come and go but all you need is one person to stay by your side...=] he always knows what to say =]

Well play it safe people until my next post see ya! =]

Hi -___-
Ugh! I hate when im not understood....or when people try to find out what's wrong with you...I know judging people is like a human trait but sometimes judging at the wrong time really pisses me off...No one understands me and I don't think anyone ever will...I don't like being asked what's wrong I rather people just know why....I hate when people joke around at the wrong time...but in the end my face says it all..I guess in the end i just have to be independent...

Im the girl surrounded by millions of people and still feel like the only person in the room. Im the one that puts the frustrated face and expects no one to ask..but in the end everyone manages to ask what's wrong..

Judge all you want because your words just don't mean anything anymore.
Wonder all you want but you will never fully understand me...because it feels like your NEVER there for me but always there for the rest in the end im always left out without you Ever noticing.

I guess im just weird..or messed up in the head..somethings wrong and im not sure what it is...[I guess all I can say for now is leave me alone and goodbye]

its sunday BLOGGERS

Konichiwa bloggers**

I thought all weekend about what I can talk about and I have finally noticed what it should be about...I have come to noticed that I have never believed in miracles and I still do not..but I have noticed today on palm sunday how people look up to god and especially mother mary how they believe that there is a way of happiness because of her.
I don't know why I notice this now but it just happens that I did.

Well back to my weekend...
It was just A-Okay...I saw my BJB =D yay eventhough it was for one day but good enough =D...time together is cOoL yay us...!
Umm what else to sayyy....its 10:42 and im hanging out with my fams im starting to think how we haven't had a family get together in a longg time =[ I miss it..hopefully we do but not having anything to do with church....just family bugging out time ahhh good times .....[random things are just getting awkward and change..why "/] why do things always have to change?...

Well enough for now idk what else I can say or mention...[Farewell] =D

a little something for Monday!

ALOHA! =D

Well I am back again for a nice little posting time =] oh yes!

Well I've been thinking I need something different...like something new besides bangs since that wasn't too much of a success lol..hmmm maybe its time to get the piercing on my ear that I've been talking about sounds cOoL..who will go with me?!

Changing the subject now!! LOL

Omgosh today I really noticed how funny the girls [jina and rose are] And how much they notice the same exact things I do their great! LmaOo talk about hilarious when it comes to gossipping =D hi 5 to them! Im so proud to have them as friends.

Talking about good friends there's also Anissa who makes up random songs like "esa nena esa nena que tu hace que tu hace bailando bailando con tigo con tigo" [smh] she seriously thought it was a new club banger song [ lol I laughed and told her YOU WISH] funny thing is she really wants to be in the music business and I told her I love you but never sing that song again! Lmaooo] smh she's too much.

Well what else is there to say oh yes....my phone! My phone is one of the most annoying phones ever created it loses service every 5 minutes [LITERALLY] its time to buy a new one off of someone because if I buy it from TMOBILE it will come out too much. So if your selling please tell me =[ ||sliidey|| is becoming ONE of those phones. =[ im highly upset and disappointed.

Soo yeah ummm anything else [let me think] oh yeah random quote or lyrical for the finale! =]

Hold in too much and you'll explode...
That is my motto because trust me I've hold in so much pain, thoughts and ideas and holding back isn't the way to go..it becomes a habbit and slowly eats you alive as the days go by..I haven't stopped but im working my way out of the habbit but trust me if your starting to hold in everything now save yourself while you can "/.. [Like the verizon commercials says its a dead zone]

I think that's enough for today besides its MONDAY [one of the dullest days of the week for some reason] but mine was OKay finally =] high 5 to me [yes I just high fived myself so what! =P]

Well good bye to you losers, dorks, weirdos, and etc. [=D dueces]

Just felt like putting up a pic

moody me

HeLL-O
Once again its a random post =]
Lately I've noticed I've told mostly stories than actaul advice and im thinking maybe im not cut out for the part because I may give advice but won't take it and that's bad "/

Well people I know us teenagers have a tendecy of saying Love so im just going to say it from a teenagers prospective L O V E stinks..its dumb and confusing..one moment things are good the next its like the person just fell for someone else -___- blahhhhhh! People are confusing like you either like that person or you don't you can't one moment and could the next back and forth..smh idiots

Well let me think of what else to say...

Lately those who I was close to are slowly slipping or shifting away..It seems I was the only one who actually cared and hit them up and now that I have stopped hitting people up they don't even hit me up so I guess this means screw them because im not going to be the only one who cares about this "friendship" if they don't. Guess this means peace to them.

I have noticed my life has been a waste..I feel like every person has their purpose and they say you don't find your purpose until the future and seriously I don't think I will have one..so what's the point of being here? I think of all the things I am good at or needed to be here and I can't think of anything except being good at school but give it a few months and I might just mess up -__-...some people have told me that im still here to help others..so who will help me?..and who are these others because before people would come to me for advice and yes it might annoy me but I would still try to help. But now who knows what's going on with them.

You said you care and you're always going to be there but in the end that was all a lie [by me]

You said im special to you and you can't live without me but really your living life without me as you speak and living perfectly fine...in the end all you said were lies and im really just another ghost in your life. [By me]

I say these quotes not to accuse anyone but to open up your eyes and think if this has happened to you. I might sound pretty hopeless and down but I'm actually okay and in the end I might just be strong enough to just be independent im not saying it'll be easy but I'm thinking if I try I might just be able to do it.

I wish you could feel that my love is real but you're not a man [katy perry]
That's my fav. Part of the song and everytime I hear it it makes me SHAKE MY HEAD. well bloggers weather has been looking nice =] I wish I could just go to a hill sit down and stay there all day alone and look at the sunrise and sunset then look at the stars that sounds perfect =]


In the end I don't know what else to say no more thoughts to write down FOR NOW..UNTIL NEXT TIME MY DEAR READERS....GOOD BYE!

blogging time ! =P

NihaO bloggers =D!

This is going to be a short post because Im sort of in a hurry =] and a little busy soo yeah myweekend=awesome =D...party on saturday had a blast with the friends =D oh yessss! My feet were killing me with those killer heels but besides that I was good! happy bday to rose one more time =D hope you enjoyed yourself...

Well yeah let me ask you a question:
GIRLS!!!!! guys always say we are the "confusing" ones and that you're always on their mind but why is it their aways can change all that by putting hacks or stuff about other girls...and still have the guts to tell you you're the one...? Like are you serious how can you act like we didnt read it smh..WOW guys you blame us but your as screwed up and confused as we are.

Another thing why is it when you finally think you know someone you find out some shocking news that just makes you start doubting everything about them and everyone else.??..Seriously I don't trust anyone anymore there's no such thing as someone who will never betray you no matter how close you are sorry but they either have or will betray you [sorry to be mean about it but its just true]

Tip to a blogger: if this person stood in contact with your friends and not you and all of a sudden expresses these "feelings" that supposively they've had for you I find it suspicious so check him out more see how long he'll last around if he truly "cares" and besides what made him come out 4 years later telling you this?
Humans are so imperfect its annoying -_-

Everything is getting played out that life is getting sucky [shaking my head]
Well im outtie for now until next time my friends I'll answer the other questions whenever I can okey dOkey Love you bloggers!
Shaki's OUTTTTTTT lmaOO

a little something something for the week lol

Konichiwa---NihaO my friends!=]

Hey funny thought just came into my mind some of you probably are wondering why my font is always pinkish well it's in order for those who have phones to have the same reading opportunity as you computer users =] lol yes I make it easier for everyone =] you are all important [wink] lol

Well back to blogging so until my laptop is fixed I will be posting up at random moments..but then again I did that before anyway lol [Whenever I have the time to post, or whenever I get an opportunity] =] So don't worry I'll do my best to keep you entertained

It's been only two days since my last posting but so what many things can happen during 2 days...let me think.....[5 minutes later] Okayy maybe not lol.

I received a question =] thank you reader [wink]
Here's the question: What do you do when you doubt yourself or the choice you made? Plsss answer Shakii.

My answer: Well one thing I know we all do is make "mistakes" as we call them but what they really are..are actions we believed were correct at the moment...so in the end whatever choice you make you should never doubt..because obviously there must of been a good side to it because of there wasn't you wouldn't have made the choice in the first place ..right? One thing I must be honest about is the fact that I doubt myself A LOT! basically all the time but I don't advice you to do it because it really doesn't help low self esteem...Never doubt yourself It doesn't help with any situation..you are who you are and you basically have to deal with how you are..and if the people you believe are truly there for you ..they'll like you for who you are...So dont ever doubt yourself just know that pushing yourself for success is a good thing =] Eventually you'll notice the great things you have and trust me everyone has great things about themselves.

I tried =] I hope that helped...SO yeah if any more questions plz leave comments and I'll try to answer the best I could..

Well im outta here for now until next time my dear friends..and lovers lol..and strangers GOODbye for now until we meet again [out of the box] that's a little kid show smh..lol i need to sotp watching those shows..O_O There so entertaining sometimes lol

alittle piece of my awesome weekend

Blog

Okay so I wrote this blog while on my way back to new york =]..and left it in my notes to later on put on this magnificent website lol well anyways I notice the whole advice thing is going down the drain help it support it let it come up that dirty drain! LOL well yeah im a little nauseous from the ride and drinking vanilla milkshake delicious but leads to huge chances of dizziness and soon to be digestion lmaOo ignore that please well yeah this weekend was pretty great went to Rhode island with my uncle aka.fast bootyshake and to see my loving sexyy other half lol =D she's hot lmaOo but yeah Saturday was cOoL went to the mall of course =] when don't I?...had a good time there because come on it's my other half and shopping AMAZING! So after that we went bowling which was suppose to be a lot of her friends but they all couldn't go..except for one named Alex and he was pretty cOoL [high 5 to him] lOl we had a good time and then went home was suppose to break night but didn't sadly....soo yeah enough of that too exclusive for you readers lol jk..but yeah let me think of what else to say...taking a little break =]

Well yeah -___- my headache is getting worse NOTCOOL!

So a question for the readers..doesn't it seem scary to get old? Like feel their skin, look at it.."/ I happen to be highly afraid so now I look at my face in disappointment cuz it's close to it O_O once again NOT COOL

Ummm...I think you guys should give more questions in order for my advice column to get better...anyquestions..?!

Retracing back to last week's post
The kid could be so perfect but he has his moments "/ why is that?... one question do you ever doubt or question the person your with? [Im not with him im just asking]

So yeah I finally starting typing once again after hours lol I felt the post needed more and remembered how I haven't mentioned my weird bestfriend ANISSA Omgosh how could I forget to mention her in my blogs she 's like the most randomest person and weirdest u can ever meet she's too much but I can handle her =D..! LOL idk about u but I can so yeah...=D she's great just felt like giving her that mini shout out since she deserves it. =D [high5 to her]
So yeah on march 16 is my bestie rose bday and she's finally turning 15 abOut time so yeah now im just saying w.e comes to mind which means its time to go lOl! Before the readers get sleepy and start calling me normal soo yeahhh give me ideas what to write about tell me
Omgosh I almost forgot to mention one of my random moments on Saturday lol how some lady confused our car for her friend's car! Priceless let me explain okayy so we were waiting for my fastbootyshaker to get chimi's and there's this girl that gets out the car infront of us to get chimi's too and ugh her outfit was so wack and uglyy like ewww she needs help lol well that's not the point she went and it was a little cold so she heads back to that car but doesn't notice that she accidentally got in our car so heiry,blanca,jason and I are watching her get in the passenger seat while blanca tells her excuse me [mind u the lady hasn't noticed yet] and the stranger says huh and turns to look at all of us and screams...she got out the car so fast and went to her friends filled with embarrassment omgosh it was priceless so funny that blanca didn't have any strength to turn on the car [hilarious!] hahahaha okay I guess that's it for this post until next time my friends GOOODBYE! *_*

AHHHHH

A whole week and 2 days without blogging imagine me slowly -__- dying without it.

I apologize for not blogging in awhile things were just not organized and ready and my computer was acting up ! [smh] sheesh...it was like it was not my blogging moment..well yeah at this moment my computer is behaving =] and I remembered to come blog!!!

Im late but so what HELLO/ NIHAO! =]

umm what to update you on...Ummmm..random moments that happened to me while I was gone..Oh yeahhhh drama with a girl at school [btw she's like not even 5 feet..she's chunky [no offense] and she talks but doesn't back it up] The usual bLah blah girl lol..Well this was today okay So let me tell you how this "supposedly drama started" So I guess she likes my friend victor AKA My babii daddiie =O not really lol just a nickname lol.. sO yeah She's forever touching him like omgosh I never seen someone so obsessed! She's always bothering and to bother him I always be like your boooooo lol smh he just shakes in shame and walks away lol..But she touched him extra today and I caught her so I found it hilarious because he made a funny face expression which she didn't see [he hates it when she touches him but he's too sweet to scream at her] so i started laughing and my bestfriend Rose saw why I was laughing and started cracking up as well the girl I guessed notice and started gossiping saying to her "friend" that she wanted to fight me because I was laughing like seriously this is a girl that people laugh at ALOT! and she wants to fight me like wOw seriously how dumb can you be..it's like now people can't laugh? So just to be little evil me I laughed louder and screamed "I laugh at w.e I Want =]"[hehe im evil] So yeah that was done with until like 5th period when i was looking out the door for my english teacher he was late So we were all assuming he was absent but I noticed the girl was in front of the door stomping her foot like she was Shrek like seriously you're not attractive and your stomping with a gorilla face and shrek feet [why?] lol..so I laughed and shaked my head at the fact that she just stands there [[once again im evil] lol so yeahh That was the last of her for the day im not a fighter but like seriously little kid drama is soooo old school O_O idiots! lol hehe

Okayy what else tO talk about Oh yeah Im not usually the lovey dovey chick that mentions boys and stuff but I guess it's about time at do some talking about this special boy =] Yes I said special

Okay so he's funny, amazingly cute, and always knows what to say for I wont stay mad sheesH! I really didn't think i'll ever get to this point where the person is always on my mind but I guess there's a time for everyone.. SO yeah He's great..but then again the horrible part is I doubt him alot! like theres so many things that I believe can go wrong with him and that's not good [I ask myself why do I have to think so negative on things that can actually be good for me and sadly I never have an answer "/] Guess I need advice myself..so what you guys think I should do btw I have really strict parents and brother so boyfriend isn't occurring anytime soon..so do you think I should push him away??? BTW He tells me how much he likes me a lot ! but I have a trusting issue and I don't believe him..should I let my guard down and hear this person out or nahh??..give the adivisor ADVICE plz.. =]

ME: sOo....if you could have anything in your life at this moment what would it be?
Him: u

SO yeah I feel weird I actually just wrote that =O gasp! Ican't believe it! lol..but yeahh Im thinking I should finish the blogging but Im having fun sooo Ima keep on going since I haven't blogged in so long =]

Let me mention important people I actually never liked doing this because in the end I forget people so yeah I changed my mind lol!!! Smh Im such a dork! Random question why is it that almost all babies are born and wrapped with the famous White blanket thats stripped with red and blue lines on the top..idk if this is a New York thing or all around but I think I've seen that blanket seriously wrapped around every new born ! lolsz..?? seriously so have you been wrapped with this "famous" blanket?

OmgOsh one question for you bloggers why is it when us girls or guys are losing weight parents automatically think it's because you like someone? SHEESH who understands them these days..

RANDOM I GOT BANGS =] picture at the Right! Think it looks nice? Please be honest =]

Well Ima go because I have some singing to do with my bestiie Jeremi aKa el loco =] lol..woohoo..bye bloggers adios! =]

IM BACK ONCE AGAIN

I apologize!! omgosh..i haven't posted in exactly one week I've been out of it and not really in the blogging mood..This week I guess was alright nothing new ..or exciting except the fact that I noticed that Im actually pretty good at volleyball =] [ waiting for that coach gRR] anyways guess what bloggers is another week of ADVICE! =O 3rd week.. Hmm..So here it goes I'm going to try my best =]

• Imagine a girl who is in love with her boyfriend but then she meets this other guy and starts having feelings for him what can she do?

Answer: Okay first of all love is a very strong word like how could she love and have feelings for someone else. There must be something wrong with your boyfriend in order to start having feelings for another person..So test yourself..get to know this person that your starting to have feelings for really try to picture yourself with them and see if life with this person can overtop what you've experienced with your boyfriend...like can you really imagine yourself with them?..If not then theres your answer you weren't meant to be with this complete stranger and you're basically with the person that deserves you =]...If you can picture yourself with the other person..then maybe you've been with the wrong guy afterall..this question is mostly something you must answer nd test yourself..I can't give you all the answers..

• How can you cofront the person you like if your not sure how they'll react? p.s. im shy

Answer: Ouch..this is tough..1-- u dont know how they'll react & 2-- you're shy okay first of think about it..do you talk to this person in person a lot? if so what kind of things you talk about...are your conversations more like a friendship kind..bestfriend...think about it.....Does the person give you a lot of looks [flirty?..nasty? or funny?] if you think this doesn't matter trust me it does..It can mean a lot more than you think.. But yeah..best thing to maybe do is find out if this person likes you..like have instant message conversations and do what i do ask random questions =] u always end up finding out a lot of information lol trust me...

wOw i can't believe those were the only two questions for the advice column this week..Oh BOO!

but yeah make sure to hit me up with questions if not i might actually give up on this thing.. So time to be RANDOMMMMM!!!

Ugh imagine this>>sitting on the bus ..in your own little world wen someone sits next to you...someone with the smell of CIGARETTES like seriously polluting the air that you was breathing -__- a-holes! This happened to me today I was so furious that this lady sat next to me and was slowly killing me with her disgusting cigarette smell..like ewww how could you expect to get any men with that smell!...UGH! moving on

For those Americas best dance crew fans =] ...Last episode next thursday!!!! Battles of the sexes..will it be questcrew or beatfreaks =] tough decision but it's our decision make sure to vote plz by texting 1 to 22444 [questcrew[[the guys]]] or 2 to 22444 [beatfreaks[[the girls]]] Random I know =]

Random question for the readers: [[from anypoint of view]] Do you think the communication between a mother and daughter is important or do you think if the daughter feels that communicating with her mother the outcome would be bad that she should stick to herself? [plz answer]

Well people im outty for the night BTW I will keep blogging more starting 2morro =] hopefully and please remember asking questions for my blog will only help me more on sundays =] BTW Ellen Roqsz =] u should watch her show lol.

OMGOSH!

I am highly disappointed at youtube...Okay so I usually go on youtube to see these certain people sing.. and I discovered that their account was suspended -_- are you serious? They were like insperation into singing..okay I pushed it but they were pretty darn awesome nd now their gone??? YOUTUBE will hear from me! GRRRRR lol [just felt like posting this] random much? I know =]

Hey since Im always random I thought of more things to mention while I'm at it I went to downtown with the Other half and guess what new insiders for the day =] like always for those who know us lol I was thinking of mentioning them but changed my mind..U dont deserve to read it =] and plus I don't have the time to mention it lol MUAHAHAHA...OMGOSH I forgotttttttttttt =O it's sunday Advice column night smh i cant believe i forgot..BTW it's my dad's bday =] he's 42 shhhhh lol i mean 38 =] lol.. and my Db's bdayy he's 17 =] nice right? and right now im in jersey and i just happened to remember that I have an advice column to post tonight smh.thinking right now looking through my phone for the questions

One thing Advice to youtube are you seriously retarded?? deleting an account of amazing talent..jealous much?? -_- jerks

How could you let go of someone if you see them everyday? that's the first one of the night.. okay that's definitely a hard question to answer because how could you?? Okay I thought about this maybe ignore them move on, only say hi once and ignore the rest of the time..because if you keep dazing off and picturing yourself with them..things are not gonna get better dont you think? Maybe even try thinking about chocking the dude or chick whichever okayy sorry bad advice lol..ignore that but seriously like try to visualize yourself with other people look at the bad things about this person just to make them seem less attractive..tell friends to back you up in ignoring if their good friends they'll help if not, you have some sucky friends..SORRY moving on

Would you tell one of your friends who you envy that her boyfriend is cheating on her? Would you tell them if your friend knew that your jealous of her? she might think you're trying to break them up..?? tough situation..what could we do?? Try to prove to her that her boyfriend is a total slob. (Test him by making anonymous phone calls as someone that you know he likes) IF that doesn't work call doctor phil [[This question was answered by my little sisters..funny right?]] They might be smarter than you think =] NEXT ONE

Last one for the day: How do you get out of the habit of being a liar or stealer? This was one difficult question but amazing thanks bloggers.. =] hmm...how about starting off by telling the truth about the little lies and see how it goes from there.. next would be to think about the consequences of lying..why lie instead of the truth? maybe you should stop using excuses about getting in trouble...going to places..etc. some lies may help but others can lead to serious consequences or horrible situations. Telling the truth might hurt but lying can't always help....if this doesn't help mannnn you're in serious trouble..[or as my sisters say dookie] lol..Then there's stealing which also involves lying so try starting off by working on the lies and then stealing..by the way...what's the point of stealing? why can't you just get a job ? be independent..not a piece of disappointment to your friends and family....you start losing trust from those who you care about..what do you get out of that?

FUNNY TOPIC OF THE DAY: how do you get out of the habit of texting? One answer you don't smh it's tooooooo addicting sorry! moving ON!

Well time to go this post was interesting and fun too since I wrote it with my sisters aww future advice helpers =] lol. little me! =] lol well g2g now ADIOS AMIGOS!

BACK!

Okay so I've been in the blogging mood now for about 3 days It's been bothering my brains out at the fact that I haven't been blogging OUCH! I was dying slowly.. Well yeah back to my thoughts..lately I've been having many things on my mind and I really don't know how to handle it..Stressed out much? I'm wondering now how I can I talk with my mother...and try to have the connection we had before, where did all of that go? Why was it easier before and now It's like holding everything in isn't helping out anymore..good thing my BJB came this weekend.. thanks BJB =] I don't know how I would of survived without her. Okay well at this moment I can't keep going but will soon finish typing my thoughts...SO at this moment G2G! 

VACATION WEEK

Okay so basically I noticed I haven't posted up in a few days but Im back on the posting track lol
So yeah at the beginning of this vacation I thought everything was gonna be awesome because Friday and Saturday was absolutely awesome and Sunday was relaxing but then it got to the point where Monday came ugh and a wake up call about homework hit my mind So I remembered it was time to get back on track So I did on Tuesday though lol. I finished an essay and started on another. By Wednesday I was done with both, but then I remembered my 5 page research paper O_O darn I got too excited and my mind pretty much said heyyyy buddy one more thing lol.. So yea I chose today to do it so after this post my plans are to finish that a poster and a poem..think I can do it? [don't really have a choice but to do it]

So anyways enough of the education side of my week guess what I'm with my other half this week =] something good came out of this vacation..=D woo! So she came Wednesday night and we talked but didn't get to enjoy it too much since we had to go to "work" the next day so we did and we noticed working together wont be that much of a distraction when it comes to working we can get pretty serious and get the job done =] high 5 to us BTW on our way to the train station to go to this "job" we saw a weird looking man we named him perv with curls lol [we know why] ANYWAYS we had yummy lunch/dinner lol and then after that some delicious desert! [cupcakes] WOOO! Then last night we had a wonderful conversation finally someone there face to face =] to listen to me....! =] this is why I love her..[thanks Heiry you're the best!] So people I will keep you updated on our soon to be awesome weekend! =] because a weekend with BJB and BBJ =] is UNFORGETTABLE! G2G sorry it's not as random as usual but THAT 5 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER IS ON MY MIND!

Procrastinating again lol

okay I should stop procrastinating but one more time wont hurt=].lol so yeah right now Im suppose to be working on 3 essays and a poem -____- [[wee!]] well hopefully my day goes good because my BJB [heiry] is coming =] woo haha Ur tight =] lol well yeah vacation has been just okay but maybe it'll get even better just after this work..that I should be doing ohh darn -_- i have to go lol..these essays getting done are going to be the reason if I have a great vacation or one lousy only homework vacation g2g[in Dora's words] ADIOS AMIGOS that means Goodbye friends in spanish

Random

Okay so like I'm thinking how I randomly woke up early today like seriously very early for me. But anywaysz =] lol moving on..hmm let me think oh yea I have plans to go to the library today and tomorrrow -_- woohoo lol but I have no choice because concentrating at home is harder then I thought and writing essays is even more impossible to do, so library it is. Umm I'm actually hoping to have a good vacation because not to sound full of myself or anything but I sort of deserve one I work too damn hard with school work and helping my mom yet I notice no one seems to notice these things so I hope I get to finish the schoolwork early in the week for I can have time for fun =] sounds too good to be true -_- ugh...well right now Im waiting for my friend to get up for i can leave to the library..update u viewers/readers later on how my day went O_O bye!

Im backkkkk! =] And in a good mood lol so yeah I thought about it and was convinced into actually doing the advice column many told me I give good advice and yeah maybe their right =] so Im giving it a try =] YAY ME! So lets me check my notes and see the questions or topics the viewers chosed!

>>Topic number 1: Love the good and bad side to it
okay one question I have for everyone why is it that love never crosses your mind until you hit the age 13? Like all you think about before that is loving your friends and your family..but BAM age 13 comes and you all of a sudden start thinking you have your first huge crush that you supposedly "love".everyone goes through this WHY? like eww lmaOO and some parents still wishing you think people have cooties..lol silly them.. but anyways back to the good sides and the bad.. Good: You have the feeling that their the one, the one that you can't survive with..the one that is always by your side and will never leave and the one no one could ever take away from you. Sounds sweet right? But of course everyone knows that things always have a bad side to it especially LOVE Bad: Certain people start getting too attach..they start thinking about only themselves and that person always talking about them to everyone and annoying everyone with your lovey dovey stuff..like seriously sorry -_- IDC! lol umm another bad thing is the BREAKUP sorry but their is always a moment where one of them thinks they both are feeling that things aren't working out and as nice as you try to break up with someone and saying we could be friends..thingsjust can't end up as you pictured it [smh] My advice is TAKE IT EASY and please wait a loooonnnnggg time to say the ILY..because you might not think its such a big deal but trust me mr or mrs. lovey dovey will take it to a whole new level..sorry to be rude about it but hey I just like to say it straight up

NEXTTTTTTT

Second: How do you tell someone you like them?
I found this question to be really hard to answer because everyone has a different way of telling someone the way they feel towards them..but I think no matter how you try to tell someone you get all nervous and shy. But in my opinion I feel to not get your heart broken or an unexpected reaction you should feel like the other person feels the same way towards you and not only in a friend way...and just because their really sweet it doesnt always mean they like you..sorry for the heart breaker..but just make sure to not tell them too early things might just get awkward between you too.

Well thats all I have for now....i think it sucked lol blahhhhhhhhhhh

ummm adiossssss =] peace!

WAS SUPPOSE TO BE MY FIRST ADVICE COLUMN

I actually started doubting this whole advice column thing..like seriously I couldn't picture myself giving advice like I'm thinking maybe I shouldn't??..

Sorry I have changed my mind and the advice column will not happen O_O ..Right now I'm in a crappy mood and giving someone advice is the last thing on my mind...I guess someone else should try it..It's just not for me! -_- i guess this means bye bye advice column but of course I will still keep blogging just advice isn't going to be a topic here..ugh i hate when I look forward to something for a long time and then everything just goes down the drain One advice though never trust someone 100% NO one at all because eventually they all just back stab you whenever you think you have a connection with someone and you can tell them EVERYTHING my advice is never tell someone the complete stroy because in the end everyone's an a** anyways

STATUS: FEELING PRETTY DULL
ADIOS BLOGGERS

Can we say great day?! =D yess!







Let's start of how I came to first period class and talked all period with Rose =] that was fun and she gave me a little Valentine bag K lindOO =] HEHE



Next, I get out of first period class walk down the hallway and guess what Chris gives me a cute little brown teddybear and chocolates yum and Sweet =] i was like awwwwwwwwwwww thank youuuuuuu!! =] then Nathalya and I high fived our chocolates lol fun! I also can't forget the chocolate bar that Jina gave me =] i got all happy!



Hmmm..let me think oh yeaaaa 2nd period went into Jina's second period class and whipped sOme =x lmaoo that thought they were smart in math at jeopardy lol HAHA they were tight!! =] but of course we were laughing smh we mean! but we love it =D



now were in 3rd period Pizza party woooo!! =] Ate slices drank soda with the besties =] [[rose,jina and chris]] Any better than that nahh no way!



Thennn more talking in classes...lol.But then Ugh last period class a science test O_O i thought it would ruin my day but Guess what William gave me a cute Teddy bear=] i was soo happy it was the one I pictured =] plus a card Can we say fabulous??!! lol well yeah I wouldnt want my day any different..except for earlier at home with the daily favors stuff but now Im playing guitar hero =D woooooooo!



Now that's my fabulous coolest wonderful early valentines day =] I guess valentines day isnt so bad =] made me feel loved and notice I could be wrong about things sometimes! THANK YOU FOR READING AND THANK YOU TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO GAVE ME SOMETHING UR THE BEST! =D I LOVE YA!
-Peace to the wOrld =] SOMETIMES LOL


[i can't believe i had to write this part again O_O like the first time was fabulous] well anyways WAITTTT! I forgot to mention that I went to the dentist for a cleaning and guess what I got a new purple toothbrush like I actually got happy because it was purple it was like the Dentist knew one of my favorite colors [high 5 to him] well guess what Im cavity free =] ! woooo my teeth should be proud of me because the dentist said they were healthy, clean and awesome lol okay he didn't actually say awesome but hey why not?! [so he told me that and I put my Hollywood shades and walked out like it was all good lol jk...this was just my imagination kicking in =]..] well now really I'm going to leave now Okay bye until the next blog! hope u like this one..big difference then my point of view on valentines day before but so what =] that's me ,crazy,weird and of course RANDOM okay that's it bye O_O for real that's it ..I'm going to stop typing now...[done]

HELLOOOO!! =]

Hello Bloggers and Noseys =]

I am in the blogging mood once again =] woooo! well yeah I am going to write a mini acceptance speech and say thank you for the people who have complimented my blog, you know I don't put much effort into them but hey their paying off =] so please keep on coming! wooo!

well enough of that back to my blogging lol..umm random of course =] that's mostly what I do lol..sO i was reading other peoples blogs and omgosh their good =] ! sO i randomly started thinking that the myspace thing just isn't working out that much I'm going to give it a month or so and see how it goes but I guess I should keep it because then how will I keep in touch with those nonaimers, like imagine....hmmmm..well just a thought...sOoo omgosh I actually think I'm running out of topics =[ not cool...THINKING.....STRESSING IT......GRRRRR...[light bulb lights up] IDEA =]..this always came to mind, why are away messages on aim sooo funny, like people put life issues, love things, and stories for the day, like seriously its an away...O_O I can't lie though Im one of those people lol..but seriouly Why don't we just put away like that's what it's meant for.....for example: BRB kind of busy [[that's the right way]] our way: yoo omgosh i can't believe he did that...he's so dumb..what an a-hole..watch what's gonna happen...well anyways if anything hit me up...[[???!!!!]] WHATTT lmaooo ur not even awayyy!!!! ur just letting everyone on ur buddy list know you're personal problems lmaOo...Isn't that true??!! lol..well that's all for now people ADIOS and for those nonspanish speakers GOODBYE =]

procrastinating =]

well right now im suppose to be doing "homework" but ughh..look outside!! come on the Sun the people...=] sounds like FUN that I'm missing out on =[..but I guess I'll just have to stay in here trapped o_o with these people called mother and brother lol jk..but seriously..why do teachers always seem to give homework on the perfect days??..I believe that's their plan in ruining our lives!! But anyways..I am actually considering that ADVICE COLUMN and definetely will do one of those every Sunday =] 9:00 ish..lmaOo u know I can't promise you that yet, have to see if I could dedicate some of my time to that..do u think its a cOol idea??..Well I g2g =[ O_O time tO finish this..before I miss out on a good day and have a whole conversation with my teacher on why I didn't finish the homework lol Well Adios =] until the next time that I feel like blogging or is it bloggin? hmmm

Let me think....umm yesterday I had a random moment where a lady screamed in my ear and like messed up my peace while I was walking like she literally said in spanish I'm gonna get her..I turned around and looked at her like who the hell is she talking about but then noticed she was sort of sick in the head and I just walked away and went on to get my bacon,egg & cheese.
HMM RANDOMMMMMM!!!
lol next off..
I love taking pictures but im no where near cocky so if you just enter and it's like my face everywhere don't mind it...it's just I have a bunch of pictures and I don't know what to do with them but to show them on myspace and my blog of course! lol I also love making random beats with my friends and family like nothing is better than making a beat and mking random raps which turns out to be something called GREAT MUSIC lol =] I also like to sing like I actually sing w.e comes to mind if you hate the way it sounds then walk away duh it's not mandatory to listen lol unless your my BD [victor] we make it mandatory for him in gym.

Well eventhough my friends and family didn't know this, they were the ones to convince me in actually making a blog because they say I don't really express myself and guess what here it's like I get the feeling that I can't stop expressing myself like I can write on my good days , bad days and just plain boring days This actually gives me something to look forward to besides aim and myspace..those two things just get boring after a while it's like the same thing everysingle day, same people blah blah blah..no offense if I have you on both lol but I'm serious I like new things, topics, people =] it's more outgoing and I wont seem so predictable at times because people know me so much they aren't surprised by my randomness sometimes..it gets me angry because I hate being predictable and my CN knows very well that I do, like what's the fun in that?

I'm actually starting to notice something now..like everyone now in days say their unique, but if everyone is saying that..doesnt that make them the same as the other person? Like we get it you say your unique, but why?! give me reasons! Now in days I can't even say I'm random because everyone is starting to say that too like as much as you try and know you're different there is always someone trying to be either like you or better than you..and that's how the whole drama issue begins..dont you think?

Something else in my mind is why is it that everyday someone seems to get me annoyed, like it's a rule or something to get me mad. I can't go a day without being annoyed by someone's voice, look, or the way they act...is that normal?

ONE LAST THING I'm thinking of a next blog any ideas? Maybe an advice column thing...I'm pretty good at giving advice=] I just noticed that's my reason in making a blog as well ADVICE like imagine every week someone gives me a topic and I learn a lot about it and write about it on a sunday =] sounds nice right? so yeah think about it and hit me up on aim! =] btw that's in one week so hurry! i'll try to fit in as much advice as I can give.

Valentines day BLAH

Well since Valentine's Day is around the corner let me randomly talk about that two words SUPER GAY! lol Come on like a day to show love? Oh plzz Shut up..no one cares if you got chocolates or teddy bears..later in life they'll burn or look ugly anyways. Well I guess people believe it's such a great day because they get something..so if i buy you a snicker bar on the 13th is that considered romantic? lol because I know if I happened to ask you if you want some on the 14th your automatically thinking we're valentines lol ohhhh plz! And if you we're wondering if I'm dissing valentine's day because I don't have a Valentine your wrong because no matter if no one askes me my mom always is the one I love =] and she's lucky she gets flowers and hugs to prove it! So ha in your face! Hmm now that I'm thinking about it mothers are lucky they get presents for Valentines day, Mother's day, Christmas and their birthdays lucky them! lol They have a whole day dedicated to them! But what can we do but just accept it since their so great..well I'm done with this for now =] CAn we Say Random...Omgosh I'm randomly thinking of having an Advice section too..hmm?? This blog might actually turn out to be as AWESOME as my BJB and CN! LOL BUT then again their pretty much too awesome to be compared too

Introduction

Let me start of by saying WELCOME! I finally thought of making a blog surprising? It is to me. I'm not really the type of person to talk about themselves because it's a sign of stupidness lol jk but hey guess what im an idiot =] because I made one. I'll be posting any chance I get about anything that comes to mind, and I mean it ANYTHING! Guess they don't call me random for nothing. Well anyways hopefully by the time you return to my blog it'll look more like my myspace page =] HOT! lol

myspace page >> www.myspace.com/drzonlydiva

Well soon to be updated =] ADIOS!